it's just a part of mine

I'm alone.. hiding in the dark. I'm looking for a life to come and rescue me. I sleep, i rise, hear your denies, endlessly inside, it's crazy but sometimes i feel like i want to run away. I've got to get away. One day, you will see another side of me. My life i command it's not the way that you planned.
What do you want from me? Do you dream of a life, your life through me, myself, my time, in one we unite i don't ever want to be that girl but you want it to be.

Sakuntala Dewi B

past time.. without you..

Do you ever think about me? do you ever cry yourself to sleep? in the middle of the night when you awake, are you calling out for me? do you ever reminisce? i can't believe that i'm acting like this. I know it's crazy how i still can feel your kiss. It's been 11 months, 13 days, and 14 hours since you went away. I miss you so much and i don't know what to say. I should be over you, i should know better but it's just not the case. Do you ever ask about me? do your friends still tell you what to do? every time the phone rings, do you wish it was me caling you? do you feel the same or has time put out the flame?. It's hard enough just passing the time when i can't seem to get you off my mind.




with love, 

Sakuntala Dewi Budiono

hari ini sebanding dengan bahagiaku..

HARI INI. ya HARI INI. Bahagia lhooooo saya :D Bahagia saya disebabkan oleh MEREKA. si 3 idiot itu.. eh ga cuma mereka tapi si kakak2 yang selalu senang ngecengin gue, 2 bocah perempuan yang ngekost dideket kostan gue. jangan sebut nama kali ya?
gimana ya ceritanya? darimana ya gue harus cerita? bingung sangat berjuta-juta bingung... ga usah cerita deh, ceritanya mau gue kunci rapat-rapat dihati gue biar perasaan bahagia ini selalu ada dihari-hari gue :')
semoga kita akan selalu seperti ini ya kakak-kakak dan teman-temanku..

with love,

Sakuntala Dewi B

Hampir sempurna

sudah 11 bulan lebih 6 hari kita berpisah.

sudah 11 bulan lebih 6 hari kamu melepasku.

sudah 11 bulan lebih 6 hari kamu membuang kisah cerita.

sudah 11 bulan lebih 6 hari kisah kita menjadi sad ending (bagiku).

namun, aku berpikir.. kamu sudah membuatku menjadi wanita yang kuat. kamu sudah mengajariku bagaimana cara melawan kesakitan batin. kamu sudah mengubah pikiranku bahwa aku tidak harus (lagi) percaya kepada siapapun sebesar 100%. kamu tunjukkan bahwa ada sebagian laki-laki yang mempunyai pola pikir sepertimu. pengalamanku ini memang hampir sempurna. terimakasih.